Curse that dream I had a few months ago.
The one where we were together.
Because that dream made me fall for you.
I should never have told you how I felt.
From then on everything just went downhill.
I miss how it was before then.
Now everything is just awkward.
It’s not the same anymore.
You were better off not knowing.
I hate how she got there first.
I can see why you prefer her over me.
She hasn’t got a dysfunctional brain like me.
She’s not ugly like me.
She’s not a worthless screw-up like me.
You saw me at my worst.
You saw what my mind was capable of.
You were obviously scared by me.
Even if she wasn’t there you wouldn’t want to put up with that.
No-one else does.
No wonder I’m such a loner.
I’m just a failed human being.
I’m rambling now.
But in summary…
I wish the past 5 months have never happened.